Thank God I Don't Have Stage Fright

I wouldn't be human if I didn't make mistakes, however I must have test tube baby syndrome because I just can't seem to learn from my mistakes! The first time I was pregnant my friends cried, "Oh my God you're not stable enough to have a baby!" I beg your pardon. This is coming from people whose idea of a good time at the time was a nickle bag of greenery and some white unknown substance that to this day I thank God I didn't die of. Needless to say I dropped my unnatural zest for life and actually focused on the one I was creating within my own little frame. He came out perfect, healthy, not a scratch of stupid momma syndrome upon him. Those were the days. Then one day I called out to the Universe for what I thought to be an innocent request. It was simply that I wanted to become some famous singer (that's my passion you see), and that I would sacrifice anything to do so. Well, I'm sure the Universe has a sense of humor because it gave me my heart's desire. I became famous alright. Famous for surrounding myself with the worst new friends anyone in the entertainment business can make- ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES! I couldn't see the forest for the trees as they say and being caught up in a dream was not helping. I lost a beautiful baby boy for a few years and now it is my only reason that I haven't just gone ahead and committed myself to the asylum for life without an extended warranty. (Smile) Yeah, it's a lot I'm not telling you (hey, we just met), but here's the cool news. I'm pregnant again and this time I'll be asking the Universe for guidance and strength not a microphone. I think the pen and paper or laptop will do. I have a chance to start fresh and when my son is returned to me he'll have bed time stories galore! I'm sure the day will come that I will get to tell this story in its entirety so be ready to recieve it. I'm not ashamed of anything- just glad I didn't get popular enough for the papparazzi to capture those glistening moments(smile). The point of this little "hubby-hub" is to let you guys know it's okay to be who you are whether you're a functioning drunk or not. Just be able to own up to your mistakes and actions and when it comes time to shed the light on your dark deeds- just don't get stage fright!