All Jokes Aside

I realize that we all just met each other a few days ago, however, I'll admit that I am a walking talk show. Well, that was my funny line for the day. Now, I must be serious. There is a word called abuse, it comes in many forms. Mental, verbal, physical, emotional and so on. I am not ashamed to say that I experience the verbal kind. This hub is my outlet. I'm not sure if I should air dirty laundry so openly amongst people I can't physically talk to, but ultimately my experience may help someone else. After all, it's my dirty laundry and this is the way I can wash it for now-dig?

I believe that abusive people have absolutely no idea the damage they cause to those they prey upon. I say this based on a sheer first hand look. I'm not here to badger only ask, "How many of you are going through the same thing and what are your treatments?" Let me cite some incidents for you.

Episode 1 of many: We had been discussing the heat and it was decided to start running the air condition. Well, today I turned it off while he was at work. When he called and asked I told him it was off, that I'd turn it on for him so he would be cool when he came home. This resulted in abrupt ending of the conversation, coming home and blowing up on me about it. He threw things around and cussed to the top of his lungs. Over the air being turned off. Well, he couldn't let it go. He talked about it on the way to get groceries, on the way back, even trying to hit me in the car. It wasn't good enough, he had to follow me all through the house barking about the air. After me shedding a lot of tears and trying to get a friend to pick me up from the house for a while, he left me alone. Later, instead of apologizing, he asked me harshly what I was having for dinner. Nevermind the three and a half hours of bantering to a pregnant woman that's his way of apologizing?

Episode 2 of many: The other weekend some friends invited us to the lake. Instead of telling me he just drives off and when I run out to catch him before he gets out of the driveway to ask where he was going, he just smirks and speeds off. I had to call to see what was going on. Later, he gets home and starts in on me. Well, after getting me all riled up and crying and screaming he calls those same husband and wife that invited me to the lake also and says, "Yeah, listen to her ranting and raving." He starts laughing into the phone holding it up for them to hear. He says, "I push her buttons because it's funny to me." He conviently failed to tell them why I was so upset. He then after getting off the phone commenced to telling me how I was such a problem to him and I got on his nerves blah blah....

He's gone as far to tell me that he intentionally does this to make me leave. Nevermind that I'm pregnant and the health of me and the baby under stress isn't good. He tells me to get the f---- out every chance he gets. I know I'm an a--hole!, he says, I need to be by myself anyway!" The kicker is that when discussing when I became pregnant he says, "Oh, I know when it was- you were too drunk to remember." When asked why he would have done such a thing he says to me, "Well, you were rubbing me so I had to do it." But yet, you are angry that I am pregnant? I guess because you didn't expect those results. I'm not saying one way or the other, but my belief is that if a person is intoxicated- especially a woman, I was told by several of my uncles that you don't touch her!

Listen, I'm upset and I know this, if you read this just know that I am reaching out for support from you all, and if need be you all have support from me. Guess this is my introduction to you. Thank you for being who you are, and no worries the funny stories won't ever stop. It's just sometimes you have to be serious- all jokes aside.